Monthly Archives: July 2008

And I am so self-involved. Yeah, I am so typical.

Starting this blog a few days ago seemed like a good idea. I was feeling stressed and lonely and felt as though it would be a good way to feel connected during my M-W-F days when I am home alone with two basset hounds. Currently those days focus on cleaning and internet-browsing, and it’s been getting pretty old pretty fast. Plus, I am undergoing some significant life changes, so perhaps my friends/acquaintances/random internet strangers would like to dive into my head and see how my life is going.  However, now that I have had a few days to reflect on it, it seems like perhaps my life changes aren’t that interesting. A few people that I know who have started blogs post-college are studying abroad in far-off and exotic places, or other blogs that I read have a specific focus to them, such as clothing blogs or cooking blogs or whatever. So now I am thinking that perhaps my blogging motives are too selfish for me to continue on, and that who really wants to read about a girl who is, really, living a rather good, old-fashioned American life? A middle school teacher recently married to a physical therapist, who own a home in a quiet neighborhood with their two basset hounds. In the words of one of my former students, “BO-ORING!” Yeah, even I don’t think I’d want to read about that.

But then I realized that perhaps my experiences are not so stereotypical. I mean, let’s face it, this is MY life, and I am not going to relegate it to some common experience that every one will eventually have at some point in his/her life. While I may not be looking for some fabulous job in NYC or D.C. or galavanting around the world, or even struggling to find an apartment with some crazy roommates or whatever other graduate experiences people are supposed to have, my life still contains some spice, and, I gotta admit, a lot of surprises. And while I am not saying that there is anything wrong with those above experiences (they do sound fun!), I have decided that what I have to say in this blog is just as interesting or important or justified as any other. So there.

(Ok, and it’s not like anyone has told me these things – these are just my own insecurities coming out right now. Perhaps it’s lack of sleep or sheer boredom or my melodramatic tendencies that have caused me to write this entry. Yet I am not going to apologize for them and plan on hitting the “Publish” button right now).

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We were strangers starting out on a journey

I’ve decided to blog again. 

I blogged all throughout my first two years of college, and I have to admit, it was one of the most therapeutic activities I could have done to get me through some crazy and stressful times. Sometime after sophomore year I stopped writing, and throughout the next two years I would find my fingers twitching to type again and bare my soul to the online world one more time. However, whether due to lack of ambition or sheer lack of time, I never did. Until now.

I started blogging (xanga-ing, to be exact) right after high school graduation, and it seemed like a good time to start recording the events of my life: I was closing on a chapter on my life, beginning a new one, with new friends, experiences, and no clear definitions of what my life would behold in the next four years. Now, I found myself at a similar point in my life: I have closed another chapter of my life, and within the last three months or so I have finished student teaching, graduated from college, gotten married, bought a house, become a dog-owner, and find myself with the daunting task of teaching seventh graders in a little over a month. Within a matter of weeks I have transformed from a care-free college student with little to worry about to a full-fledged adult who finds herself faced with a house to clean, a husband to care for, and a giant stack of papers to fill out now that I am officially employed. The transition has been rather easy, I must admit, but I am not sure if it is because I can easily grow up and move onto the next stage of my life or because, in reality, I still feel like a kid many times.

So perhaps the purpose of this blog is to keep track of my journey once again, a journey which I have already begun and yet I know will continue to lengthen and change the longer I am on it. I really love my life right now, but the truth is, I am scared out of my mind for August and teaching a classroom full of 12 year-olds, and, just as I was scared out of my mind for college, I think sharing my thoughts with the world (however limited this “world” that reads my blog may be) will, once again, be therapeutic. So if you’re willing, we can start out on this journey together.

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